On July 5, 2020, after 95 days in the hospital battling complications from COVID-19, Amanda Kloots' 41-year-old husband, Broadway star Nick Cordero, died, leaving behind Kloots and their son Elvis, now 2. Throughout Cordero's health crisis, and in the months since his death, the dancer and TV personality has spoken with raw vulnerability about grief and resilience, subjects at the heart of her new memoir, Live Your Life: My Story of Loving and Losing Nick Cordero, co-written with sister Anna Kloots.
For her book's June 15 publishing date, the Talk co-host sat down with Yahoo Life for a candid conversation about loss, looking for silver linings and protecting her mental health as she takes on single motherhood.
"I think we have two choices in life when you go through something traumatic," she says. "You can let it take you over — and trust me, there are days that it does, there are days that it did. But your other choice is to keep on living and keep on striving and finding these silver linings."
She cites a favorite quote, which helps motivate her to find a silver lining each day: "Pick a flower each day, and at the end of the week, you have a beautiful bouquet."
"I am totally open to finding love again," she says. "I love love. I love being married. I love being in a relationship. I love having a companion. I would love to have somebody in Elvis's life that would be that male figure for him.
"I know Nick would want that for me," she adds. "I know that because I would want that for him, if the tables were turned and it was me... I'm hopeful that there's somebody else out there for me. I really am. And when I'm ready, I hope that Nick brings him to me... I'm sure he'll have his fingers up in heaven orchestrating something."
She notes, "With grief, you never know how you're going to feel on these anniversaries. A lot of times it's been hitting me the day before, so I'm fully prepared for that. I'm fully prepared for feeling completely fine, for feeling like I don't even want to get out of bed. I'm just going to let it happen how it happens, and surround myself with love and good people and then take it in stride, I guess."