Shanina once again wrestles with guilt and talks about the future with Tom.

"This week was the worst out of the whole comp. It could not get any worse. I am trying to forget it all, but it keeps coming back. We had a challenge and Tom helped me and it all backfired. It was a silly mistake from me - I asked Tom for help on an outfit and he gave me the answer and I felt awful after that. It was considered cheating and even if I had got the immunity I was willing to give it up, because it wasn't good.

I feel really guilty and upset about what happened to Tom – he has had a bad consequence for this. He had immunity and it got taken off him. I have been crying so much because of what has been happening to him. People say I am using him to get info out of him and that's ridiculous. I would never use him, ever. That's considered a low for me and I want people to know that. I am being called a cheat a lot and I don't know how to react to that. I did something really wrong, it was silly and poor judgment but it only came out of the determination I have that I really want win.

I think the judges have already told me that I am starting to let my personal life affect me and I am losing focus. I am not losing focus but maybe I have a little in the past. I can get back on top. Tom and I are really determined and really want to win and I wouldn't want him to leave because of this. I think he deserves a place in the Top 3 because he is a great model.

This week has made me realise that I can't do anything stupid. I do want to tell the truth but don't feel like its getting across. This thing with Tom and Nat is confusing me! I do like Tom and do want to pursue a relationship with him but not until he breaks up with her first. Tom always says he likes me but it confuses me sometimes. I would never, ever use Tom.

It is really hard being in the house and it is not like normal life. You wake up and have cameras and everything you feel or do is seen on TV. It's hard to have your normal time out and I am quite looking forward to getting out of house. I have learned a lot but I can't wait to get out and do what I really want to do – model.

Right now, I am most nervous about the comp in general. We are so close to the end and the elimination outcome and I am most excited about seeing if I do get through and stay for another week. I am looking forward to it - let's see if it happens!"