Tom 'fesses up to losing immunity and coping with a tough week...

"This week's highlight was the moment that Jen said I won immunity - and the low point was when she said 'however...' and told me I had lost immunity for cheating.

We had a challenge and I got caught talking to Shanina about it. The mikes were still rolling on us and I was mucking around with Shanina. It was not harmless flirting because it hurt me... but I went on with it and we got caught out. It's been called cheating and although I won immunity this week, it got taken away from me because I helped Shanina out.

It's hard to be called a cheat because I am not like that and I was just trying to help her. I would have done the same for Rhys because we're tight too. I wouldn't have done it for Courtney because she has done a lot to annoy me. I still don't look at it as cheating though – it really hurts to be called a cheat and I am struggling with that. This is something I have to live with and hopefully I will remain in the comp - but I don't hold what happened against Shanina.

I think Shanina does feel guilty about it and I have been trying to tell her not to. I started the challenge and after my turn finished, I said, "I know what it is and can't tell you." She went from there... teasing me, but I really don't hold her responsible in any way.

It's tough to know my personal decisions might affect my modeling life... and to have something personal wreck my chances really does suck. If I end up going home this week, that will be a regret. I think it's a good reflection on me as a model that I have been able to perform despite all that's going on. It would be nice to not have this happen to me but it's something I have to live with.

It's really weird – last night Rhys said he felt the house was his home and I agreed. It's what we've become used to and it's nerve-wracking that it's all going to be taken away from us soon. I am excited about getting out into the real world and living my life out there, but competition-wise, things are a lot more stressful. I've had a lot going on with my personal life but I doubt I would give that up for what I have learned about modeling.

I am very nervous about being in the Bottom 3 but I have dealt all my hands and hope that whatever happens, I come out on top... and I hope Australia votes for me because I love Australia!"