"Competition wise, I feel more relaxed now Hannah is gone because it's always been neck and neck with us. But I do feel for her. I know she will do great on the outside in the modelling world, but I feel bad for her to have this finish, so close to the end. If I was in her shoes, I would find that really hard. But I am proud of her and she should be proud of herself.

I am trying to keep my tolerance levels to a good point – not many people here annoy me, so that helps. I am mainly worrying about myself and not worrying about others. I am naturally a worrywart so it's hard to keep relaxed, especially this week.

I am getting a bit stressed out about the stuff between Tom and myself – I really don't know what to say and I am missing my family so much. It's right near the end of the comp and I really want to focus. It's scary to think about leaving, so close to the end.

I am worried about what people will think – and for them to think badly of me. I have felt like crap. I have been crying every night and I am trying my best to calm myself down and de-stress because I am really worried and stressing out. In a way, what happened between us was silly and I feel really bad about how Nat, his girlfriend, is feeling. That has really got to me, and Tom and I had a big discussion about it the night he called Nat.

I started crying when I learned she cried when he told her what had happened. Imagine if your boyfriend called you and said he was attracted to someone else - it would break my heart. I feel awful, I really do.

I don't feel betrayed by Tom for telling her or anything – it's something that shouldn't have happened, and we're very close. It was a one-time thing and has never happened again. I was very guilty afterwards and said to Tom I would feel better if we backed away from each other and focused on the comp and just stay good mates and he agrees totally.

But all this is killing me inside, I feel really bad. I am trying to keep my focus and keep positive, but I especially don't want to deal with this when the competition is so important to me. If I am stressing about anything, I want to be stressing about that.

It's better now that we're backing away from each other. It's hard, because I am trying to support him, but I am involved in what's happened. We're close because we are good mates and trust each other. Tom said yesterday that he can talk to me and be honest with me, and it's vice versa. It's hard here, you're in the battleground and it's hard to trust people. You want to bring normality back in the house.

Tom and I have decided to be good friends and when we leave the show, we can deal with it then. What's better for Tom right now is to sort things out with Nat - you can't think properly at the moment, plus I live in Melbourne and he lives in Sydney. I know he loves Nat and has deep feelings for her and hopefully they work things out. Tom and I are happy when we're just good mates. It hurts me to think about it – it eats me up inside to think all this pain has come about because of one hook up. I feel for Nat and I am very guilty person. It's on my mind 24/7.

I can deal with modeling-related pressure but the personal life side of this show makes me upset. I am trying hard not to bring that to my photoshoots.  

I was actually really happy with my photoshoot this week and I think I did well. I went to the shoot with the focus of having fun and I wanted to get the shot straight away. I got criticised for easing into shoots and I have learnt not to do that now. Jackie taught me that. I was really happy with my performance in the end.

Everyone in the comp is working hard right now and that's paying off. We're all working to our best ability. If I can't win this competition, I would definitely love to see Rhys win.

This week will be weird because everyone will be at elimination and it will just be Tom and me at the house! It is freaky to think there are only two people left on that couch now, waiting for only two people to come back."

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