"It was a really interesting time this week. I have felt caught in the middle of everything and I'm like the fifth wheel! Billy and Courtney are a couple and all this stuff between Tom and Shanina... I have felt a bit lonely.

I tried my best to keep out of it all, but Tommy is my best mate in the house and so I have tried to give him advice and let him know everyone makes mistakes. To be honest, I don't think he sees it as a mistake though. He's just ridden with guilt - but not regret. Guilt is a wasteful emotion, so I do feel for him. It's really hard. But even with all this going on, it hasn't affected either his or Shanina's performance on the catwalk or photoshoot or anything. Tommy has been honest, so maybe the public will relate to that.
 
It was really strange to see Hannah go home. I love her because she's so honest. She's so annoying – she's the most annoying person ever and she just doesn't stop talking - but I totally love her. I was actually more cut when she left than I have been about anyone going. Mainly because she wanted it so much and wasn't afraid of admitting and owning that. When that opportunity was taken away from her, everyone's heart just sank. And I don't think we realised how much Hannah meant to us until she left.

I have become the biggest bitch in the last week! I can't stop! I have been moody and narky... it's the biggest trip out! It's just not even like me at all. It's just been so hard to maintain my confidence and my cool lately. Maybe it's the weather.

But I think I have just been getting on my own nerves. My lack of performance is making me get angry at everything else. I need to start nailing my photoshoots – I need confidence! I am going into them lacking that feeling and I'm just totally overthinking everything. I want things to come naturally and I have to try to produce something extra. I actually think I performed better at the start of the competition, when I just relaxed and let things go! I am just not letting go of the doubts I have and that comes through my eyes in a photoshoot. I actually kinda liked my photo this week though, even though I didn't think I went as well as everyone else.

I was so hopeless at this week's challenge – really unco! We had to do all this harness rope work and my big, long limbs were flying around everywhere. At one stage, I looked down at Jen and she had her head in her hands, just laughing at me for all the wrong reasons! I had a crack though. For heaven's sake... they wanted us to do somersaults along a concrete wall!

This week, the judges thought my catwalk was too aggressive and strong. I felt in the zone for the first time in four weeks, but I need to tone it down next week. I just saw my photoshoot and went out on that runway feeling like I had nothing to lose. I am putting pressure on myself to be at the top the whole time and it's almost like I sabotage myself in a way, because I like being an underdog! I don't like being a frontrunner – I have always been like that. I like surprising people and in this comp, people always think I will do well. In a weird way, it throws me off!

If I don't win, I'd like to see Tom win. It's hard to say that, because I really want it myself. Tom is the most genuine person in the house, apart from myself. He may seem arrogant but that's just because he doesn't monitor himself and worry about how he will be perceived. If I had to pick someone I wouldn't want to win, I would say Billy. There's no one particularly I wouldn't want to see not win, but I like Billy the least of the remaining people in this comp."

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